Jul 30 2008
Is It Really Procrastination?
I’m making a concentrated effort to not allow this blog to go for more than two days with nothing new to show. It’s not easy when I’m given to being so easily distracted. It also happens that I begin a task, remember something else I need to do along the way, remember something else in relation to the second activity, complete the third, and forget what my original goal was.
I imagine this scenario leans more toward ADD tendencies than actual Aspergers. Still, ADD is part of the package I was left with. What keeps it from being full-blown ADD, I guess, is that I eventually remember some time later what I initially set out to accomplish. Sometimes it means missing a deadline, other times are nearing one which forces me to rush a finished product which usually turns out to be less than my best quality work.
Patience is also no friend of mine. If I don’t get the results I want or need when I feel I should have achieved them, I give up on the whole thing. It’s different in an employment setting since those I would work under don’t hold me to standards as high as I impose on myself. I want to excel and prove that I can complete whatever task in the most efficient and expedient way possible and still turn out quality work.
Unfortunately, this thought process prohibits me from taking on certain jobs. I am a tad obsessive when it comes to cleaning so, when I am charged with the task of any kind of cleaning, I find myself taking more time than anyone else expects of me to complete the job. I have to make sure every inch has been covered, no spot or speck remains, and everything looks as close to new as possible. Cleaning is something I can’t rush through as much as I want to.
These instances and many others make me appear to be slow, lazy, inefficient, or procrastinating. I’m trying to deliver the highest quality possible for whatever task I am given and I haven’t the patience for accomplishing anything less than “better than average.” No, I don’t expect the same of everyone else. That would be wrong.
…wouldn’t it?
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Before I was diagnosed with Asperger’s, I was misdiagnosed with ADD. Whatever problems you’re going through may not have anything to do with either disorder, but just something relating to you being human. Hopefully, that doesn’t sound too pompous.